Your first reaction is to fight
No matter what moves you make you fall
Then the realizing of lost and grief
Non belief fills you completely over flowing
The panic begins and the sting inside your soul burns
Tears just come without wanting them to
Your mind melts your useless
People they try to see but you cant let them
They cant see you weak see how much it hurts
You are just strong enough to hide its the best thing
When there eyes turn away you just let it consume you.
The tears come again for you.
Sliding down your checks until they feel raw.
Burning has each one comes down to join the other.
You close you eyes and just pray for it to be over
Welcoming death so you don't have to feel it ever again.
Closing your ever so tightly to open them to find you self still alive
Hating each breathe . . . each heartbeat.
Wondering how this pain is not strong enough to kill.
Its shouldn't be possible for a Human to survive
The shredding of your soul.
Waking to realized you could actually sleep
Some how you still manage to go on . . . to live